Pissed at myself

Ugh.

I'm pissed at myself today.

So, i started the flex plan on Monday. I get 35 additional points per week. So actually, I'm going to be great for the week. But I'm still mad.

I'm trying hard to be perfect. And not use the flex points. I used 2.5 the other day, which I accepted.

But today, i ate a whole bagel, so after breakfast I was at 9 points. then, surprise lunch for lyz, i decided to have the tilapia and that would be 4 points. This would lead to being perfectly on target for points for the day (20 or even under).

However, didn't I get to chili's and change my mind. I ordered this lunch combo where you pick a soup, a salad, and chips & salsa.

I ate the soup (potato) which filled me up. Ate only the lettuce on the salad (dipped into the dressing so I had lowfat ranch and only used about a teaspoon of it), no cheese or anything but the lettuce, and then maybe 1/5 of a basket of the chips and salsa because I was so full.

I get back to work - and the damn soup is 13 points & 510 calories. Mother Fucker.

So after scheduling in dinner (no snacks for the rest of the day) I'm at 28 points.

I'm just mad about it. Its perfectly within the plan I am following to eat those 8 points, but I feel like such a failure.

I planned to take tonight off from exercising because I am so tired, but I may change my mind and do some moderately paced walking to try to burn off something, at least.

I just feel like I'm going to wind up 5 pounds heavier tomorrow. I probably won't, but still, I am really upset about this.

Luckily, my calorie count comes in at 1256 calories, which really isn't bad.

But ugh. This sucks.