I officially feel like a SBD failure today. In reality, I didn't fail. I did follow it religiously for about a month. I did lose weight. I have kept that weight off (ignoring the minor fluctuations back and forth between 154 and 156 pounds). But since the first of our vacations a month ago, I have not been good. In Florida, I actually didn't eat overly bad. I had bagels and fruit and salads and some good foods. But my major failure over these 5 weeks has been fried foods. I simply can't seem to not order french fries at restaurants.

I have not been using the Wii Fit (except for 2 days a few weeks ago) since we tore up our floors 6 weeks ago. That's just inexcusable. Yesterday, I told myself I was going to work out last night, but my stupid headache prevented me from doing it. I simply could not have worked out through the headache (I get pretty bad ones), but I would love to have been working out all week so that on nights when I can't work out I don't feel unbelievably guilty.

Or maybe the guilt is a good thing. If I beat myself up about it enough, eventually, I'll do something right.

I feel like today's foods are on track. They are SBD appropriate (for the most part - the Go Lean Crunch cereal isn't really SBD approved for phase 2). But I have a dentist appointment at 7, so working out is pretty much a no-go today too.

And Perfect Loop stuff is going to keep me very busy through the Christmas season.

How do I find time to work out? I think its a matter of creating a time chart, sitting down, and really looking at all the things I need to be doing vs. all the things I want to be doing throughout the week. I'll feel good about myself if I can get in maybe 3 solid workouts a week. At this point, with only about 10 pounds to lose, I feel like 3 times a week would be acceptable, combined with healthy eating! So how do I find the time!!!

I definitely have non-valid excuses. Like, I need to watch 90210 on Tuesdays, and I have jewelry that needs to be made and I need my sleep (working out in the morning is simply NOT.AN.OPTION. because I cannot get up). If I sat there and made a plan to get up early and work out it would not get done. I've learned throughout the years that mornings just aren't good for me, they aren't even good for me when I've got something exciting going on worth getting up for. Seriously. Half of me, on days when we get up for an early flight to, say, Vegas, I consider skipping the flight just so I can sleep. For real! On my wedding day I'll probably sleep in!

I need a swift kick in the pants, is what I need. Or a slap upside the head.

Having Jimmy Moore put my blog out there for everyone to see has made me feel horrible for not sticking to my plan.