So i think the hardest part now for me, is going to be still restricting my carb and fruit intake. When I did Atkins, and stopped, I went on carb overload. I couldn't get enough. I figured, its ok now, because I did the two weeks and now I can have more carbs. Only, I didn't pay attention to how many carbs, and I ended up at my highest weight ever in my life. I went from a 137 after Induction, to a whopping 181.5 2 years later.

I am determined not to let that happen again. But the key is to limit myself and stick to it, and that is hard. I have to realize that just because I'm allowed starches and fruit again, doesn't mean I can jump back into having it whenever its presented to me. I have to stick to having no buns at restaurants, and not getting french fries (though, I will have them once in a while - like upcoming Florida vacation, when I'll be walking enough to counteract them).

Last night at the grocery store, I had to stick to buying just the cereal for Brad, crackers, and wheat wraps. I saw all this whole wheat pasta, and fruit, and I had to say, NO! Buy that fruit NEXT time. It's hard, because even last night I saw myself falling into the trap of "well, its ok to have those." Sure, just not all of them in the same day.

The meal plans I've written out so far in this diet have been a huge help. I buy ONLY what we can have during the week, and I list it all out so we know what's for dinner when, and we can't eat the bad stuff. I got rid of anything bad that would perish in the house - gave the rest to my mother, so the only stuff in the house is a rice stirfry, some weight watchers desserts, and some klondike bars. Of course, all that is going to my mom's at the end of the week since we'll have a teeny fridge that won't hold it, so I'm saved. If it's not in the house, I can't eat it.

But I am afraid - when we go to restaurants, resisting those fries. I'm proud I've done it so far, but its HARD. I love breads and fried stuff so much. It's like a chocolate addict resisting chocolate. I will go so far as asking them not to bring the breadbasket, at this point, because I just can't afford to eat it. Not yet.