Tonight I did 1.35 miles on the treadmill (ran .5 miles). It's a busy time at work so I had to work tonight from home, and also, I'm weirdly sore and had a hard time doing even this much.
I went tanning again tonight. I am already seeing some color, which is cool. But I fear i may have burned a little this time. I'm not red yet, but I'm quite itchy (even after a shower), so I'm thinking I may have a little burn.
I wish I had saved my old pants from before I lost weight. It would be neat to step into them today and see how big they are. Next time I'm at ON, I'm pulling out the size 14's and trying them on!
taking a break from diet stuff...
For a huge vent.
Wednesday, I went to my mother's for lunch. She mentioned she wanted to borrow the sapphire pendant that my grandmother gave me to wear at the wedding. (She's envious of this pendant, that's pretty clear). anyway, i say fine, no problem, never ONCE say she can't have it, but I do tell her that since her dress has a high neckline, with silver all around it, I don't htink its appropriate to wear a necklace of any sort with the dress. (Shannon can vouch for me here). She gets all pissed off, acts like a total bitch at dinner wednesday night (barely speaking to me, being nasty, refusing to help me fix a button my jacket, etc). So i avoid her yesterday, and instead, stay at work. To have a day to just...break away.
My grandmother has given me a 3 strand, probably 300 pearl chocker to restring for her (it has small small fake pearls), and wants knots in between each one. I got a tool to do it. She gave it to me approximately a week ago, wants it by the wedding. I told her when she gave it to me, it would take me alot of work, but I would get it done. She's already asked about it 3 times since.
I have been trying not to talk wedding for a few days, because I had such a bad day on Tuesday. I went over for lunch today, and both mom and meme are there.
First, my grandmother brought up the pearls AGAIN. And insisted she would keep bugging me til I get it done. I told her, don't you will piss me off. Like the only fucking thing on my todo list is to do her pearls. I'm getting married in less than 4 weeks! I have ALOT to do, nevermind work. I'm not farting around, doing nothing, BELIEVE me.
Then, she says to me "oh, that pendant I gave you would look REALLY nice with your mom's dress" to which mom replies "no! we're not talking about this. she told me i couldnt have it." Which i never did. So i told her so. I never said that mom, i said i didn't think you needed one, but heather can vouch for me here (she was there) i NEVER said you couldn't wear it! I said wear whatever you want! I don't care!
Then mom tells meme, as i'm sitting rightthefuckthere, oh, you can borrow my pearls for the wedding, they'd look nice with your dress, and on and on describing the pearls, and offering to go get them. She did it just to piss me off, and i'm sick of that shit. Like 1) its rude to do that because I SAID I WOULD GET IT DONE, DAMMIT! and 2) what if she does borrow them after i've scrambled to get them done. That's so fucking oh my god rude.
I'm so sick of the two of them. My mom, my grandmother, and my sister, have been the rudest, bitchiest, most unbelievably ridiculous people through my entire wedding planning process. I wish they weren't coming. And I FULLY, WHOLEHEARTEDLY PROMISE YOU I MEAN IT. Don't fucking come.
I wish I had eloped. If I knew 2 years ago, what I know today, I would never have planned this weddding. brad and i would have flown to vegas and eloped, and be done with it. its so not worth it now. I want to be married, and i dont want my family there. How awful is that. Family i've loved my entire life, i can't stand to be around anymore. It is absolutely unbelievable.
Wednesday, I went to my mother's for lunch. She mentioned she wanted to borrow the sapphire pendant that my grandmother gave me to wear at the wedding. (She's envious of this pendant, that's pretty clear). anyway, i say fine, no problem, never ONCE say she can't have it, but I do tell her that since her dress has a high neckline, with silver all around it, I don't htink its appropriate to wear a necklace of any sort with the dress. (Shannon can vouch for me here). She gets all pissed off, acts like a total bitch at dinner wednesday night (barely speaking to me, being nasty, refusing to help me fix a button my jacket, etc). So i avoid her yesterday, and instead, stay at work. To have a day to just...break away.
My grandmother has given me a 3 strand, probably 300 pearl chocker to restring for her (it has small small fake pearls), and wants knots in between each one. I got a tool to do it. She gave it to me approximately a week ago, wants it by the wedding. I told her when she gave it to me, it would take me alot of work, but I would get it done. She's already asked about it 3 times since.
I have been trying not to talk wedding for a few days, because I had such a bad day on Tuesday. I went over for lunch today, and both mom and meme are there.
First, my grandmother brought up the pearls AGAIN. And insisted she would keep bugging me til I get it done. I told her, don't you will piss me off. Like the only fucking thing on my todo list is to do her pearls. I'm getting married in less than 4 weeks! I have ALOT to do, nevermind work. I'm not farting around, doing nothing, BELIEVE me.
Then, she says to me "oh, that pendant I gave you would look REALLY nice with your mom's dress" to which mom replies "no! we're not talking about this. she told me i couldnt have it." Which i never did. So i told her so. I never said that mom, i said i didn't think you needed one, but heather can vouch for me here (she was there) i NEVER said you couldn't wear it! I said wear whatever you want! I don't care!
Then mom tells meme, as i'm sitting rightthefuckthere, oh, you can borrow my pearls for the wedding, they'd look nice with your dress, and on and on describing the pearls, and offering to go get them. She did it just to piss me off, and i'm sick of that shit. Like 1) its rude to do that because I SAID I WOULD GET IT DONE, DAMMIT! and 2) what if she does borrow them after i've scrambled to get them done. That's so fucking oh my god rude.
I'm so sick of the two of them. My mom, my grandmother, and my sister, have been the rudest, bitchiest, most unbelievably ridiculous people through my entire wedding planning process. I wish they weren't coming. And I FULLY, WHOLEHEARTEDLY PROMISE YOU I MEAN IT. Don't fucking come.
I wish I had eloped. If I knew 2 years ago, what I know today, I would never have planned this weddding. brad and i would have flown to vegas and eloped, and be done with it. its so not worth it now. I want to be married, and i dont want my family there. How awful is that. Family i've loved my entire life, i can't stand to be around anymore. It is absolutely unbelievable.
Tonight I did 2 miles on the treadmill. I kept cramping up so I couldn't run too much. I ended up running .75 miles but split into spurts. I also did arms and abs :)
Had Thai for dinner, yum, after my first true tanning experience. Weird, but awesome. It was nice to get warm in the middle of a cold rainy evening.
Now I am tired, and ready for sleepy time!
Had Thai for dinner, yum, after my first true tanning experience. Weird, but awesome. It was nice to get warm in the middle of a cold rainy evening.
Now I am tired, and ready for sleepy time!
Idol...
I am officially in love with Adam Lambert. This guys is LEAGUES better than anyone else this season. He is amazing, super talented, and just oh my god good.
That being said, is it me, or does Idol keep getting longer and longer each season? This year, with 4 judges all having their say after each contestant, god, it gets so long. I was able, luckily, to catch a bit of each performance (and all of Adam's) and just Simon last night in about 15 minutes. But the whole program? 2 hours. Geesh.
That being said, is it me, or does Idol keep getting longer and longer each season? This year, with 4 judges all having their say after each contestant, god, it gets so long. I was able, luckily, to catch a bit of each performance (and all of Adam's) and just Simon last night in about 15 minutes. But the whole program? 2 hours. Geesh.
More relaxed today than yesterday. I am hoping to focus more on work today and less on wedding stuff.
I dressed all cute today. Took Tylenol PM last night which gave me an amazing night's sleep, so I think that contributes to my relaxed feeling this morning.
149.0 this morning, which is good. I'm up from that 147.5 but I'm ok with it. However, makes me want to exercise more again. Hoping to treadmill tonight but it is Uncle Andy's bday so I may be getting home pretty late, so we'll see.
I dressed all cute today. Took Tylenol PM last night which gave me an amazing night's sleep, so I think that contributes to my relaxed feeling this morning.
149.0 this morning, which is good. I'm up from that 147.5 but I'm ok with it. However, makes me want to exercise more again. Hoping to treadmill tonight but it is Uncle Andy's bday so I may be getting home pretty late, so we'll see.
Weight is still good. Was 148.5 this morning. I am just doing my best to still exercise and keep my calories high enough to stay in the same weight range.
I did drop from a 38DD to a 36D. Got a new bra this weekend because the others are a bit big now. I wish bras didn't cost $20 (for a cheap one). Underwear is like, $3 each, why are bras so ridiculous?
Today I ate pretty well. I had my typical breakfast and snacks, steak & green beans for lunch, and my fat free hotdogs and Ore Ida tater tots for dinner.
Gave myself a pedicure. I've never had one, and though I have a gift certificate for one, I still don't know if I will ever get one. Shannon & Ali were nice enough to get me a certificate but even just doing the ped egg on my own feet tonight was too ticklish for me. I don't think I can handle someone else touching my feet, I'm way too ticklish. I'll think about it though, for sure. I might be able to put the certificate towards another service if I just can't deal with it.
Anyway, the pedicure went well. I used the ped egg, took a hot bubble bath, exfoliated my feet with a scrub, clipped, filed, and buffed my nails, used cuticle oil and lotion, and then I painted my toes a cheerful pink! :) I am not very good at doing toenail polish though :( I think they will be ok though! :)
Emailed out the info for viewing our wedding online :) I saw the wedding of someone else and it looks totally great, so I'm excited and nervous about our own wedding being broadcast. :)
Stressed and tired. My feet feel nice and relaxed. If only I could do a full body pedicure :)
I did drop from a 38DD to a 36D. Got a new bra this weekend because the others are a bit big now. I wish bras didn't cost $20 (for a cheap one). Underwear is like, $3 each, why are bras so ridiculous?
Today I ate pretty well. I had my typical breakfast and snacks, steak & green beans for lunch, and my fat free hotdogs and Ore Ida tater tots for dinner.
Gave myself a pedicure. I've never had one, and though I have a gift certificate for one, I still don't know if I will ever get one. Shannon & Ali were nice enough to get me a certificate but even just doing the ped egg on my own feet tonight was too ticklish for me. I don't think I can handle someone else touching my feet, I'm way too ticklish. I'll think about it though, for sure. I might be able to put the certificate towards another service if I just can't deal with it.
Anyway, the pedicure went well. I used the ped egg, took a hot bubble bath, exfoliated my feet with a scrub, clipped, filed, and buffed my nails, used cuticle oil and lotion, and then I painted my toes a cheerful pink! :) I am not very good at doing toenail polish though :( I think they will be ok though! :)
Emailed out the info for viewing our wedding online :) I saw the wedding of someone else and it looks totally great, so I'm excited and nervous about our own wedding being broadcast. :)
Stressed and tired. My feet feel nice and relaxed. If only I could do a full body pedicure :)
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